After the sunset

After the sunset, I'll only remember how much it hurt and not the actual experience.

I've worked hard on myself trying to make me a better individual, not for others but for me. I act carefully so I don't hurt those around me but little was I ready for anything that approached me this year. 

The level of pain I've gained from this year's stress alone was unbearable, had two anxiety attacks and thought I'd be completely at a lost. Then from no where I came across a care-free soul.

Have I never had a carefree individual come into my life? sure, I have they are everywhere. Just one like this one had never appeared so suddenly. I am open to meet new individuals but never to go out of way to this extent. 

I love new experience, and being a little crazy this year was on my list. I didn't expect to fall as deep as I did; didn't expect to feel all the empty-ness that I fought through.

So, 2016 was a mash up of a lot of fun and total hell. Funny story is that it's not even over yet; the stress is building on and on now day by day. Hopefully after this year I can just get back to focusing on whatever I wanted to do originally. 

When the original plan does not work, there is always a plan B. 

Besides, after a good nights sleep I shouldn't be thinking about these infamous memories anymore. 

Thank you though, for allow me to see just how crazy I can be. I never knew I had it in me, you changed me as an individual and I couldn't appreciate it more. 

Love,

LxM