Grey-scale

Having taken out the color doesn't necessarily mean that everything is lifeless, and dull- looking at everything from a different perspective is actually a plus on your half.

In greyscale, what makes something to the point where we only see black and white but truthfully there is no black and black its really all grey. The grey spots simply falls on the darker or lighter sides of the scale that we create for ourselves.

Add some darker tints allow it to be deep grey, and add some lighter tints and it almost carries a whiter essence to it.

I had the joy of working with a photographer from Sacramento California (JonahVangPhotography) and he managed to get this shot of me and after receiving it - I was touched rather deeply not by the portrait of myself but rather that this image was like a canvas.

Blur the lines and fade it into the background, life is like this image of no color. There is no define line for anything, we ourselves make our rules and we ourselves decide on our worth.

I am standing in the foreground, does that make me the focus of all the things around me? in this portrait perhaps but there will be times when I am not the focus, when others are the focus when the trees behind me will not be faded but rather flourishing with life.

A grey-scale is a meter, with a scale that we create for ourselves. Dim the lights out of the color- and just enjoy that through all this madness really we can just enjoy the simplicity of how everything falls together.


With Regards,
LxMei

Don't Cry Because It's Over, Smile Because It Happened. (Dr.Suess)

Don't Cry Because It's Over, Smile Because It Happened. 

-Dr. Suess 

We all meet ups and downs in our lives. Sadly, there isn't much we can do when we meet with multiple downs. I don't look down on crying but when it boils down to it after the shower you just have to find a rainbow. 

Can't find a rainbow, no worries you are capable of creating one for yourself. 

Steps to making your own rainbow after the flood of tears:

1. Clear your vision (heart, soul, mind- find a moment of peace)

2. Take a deep breathe ( the kind that you can feel lift off your shoulders) 

3. SMILE (force it if you must but just know that its going to help)

Congratulations, look you have a rainbow now on your face. 

Now, move forward and strive for a new goal.

This post essentially is not only for me but for anyone who may stumble upon it too. We are vulnerable to our emotions and I am not saying you should ever bottle up but quite honestly from experience I know it never goes well. 

Just know that you are not alone and there are more people in this world suffering perhaps from the same things you are or worse. 

I tell myself every time I am reminiscing a certain individual, thinking about certain memories or just having a bad day (week, month yea.. ya know) that I have to look up because look back or looking down won't lead me anywhere but to where I didn't want to be obviously because I allowed myself to walk away.

Walking away from the negative, the bad takes a lot of strength and courage. So if you know someone who is struggling just give them a smile, share your rainbow and know that you can't always cry because something you once loved so dearly is over but rather smile because it did really happen and in the jist of the moment you loved every second of it. 

<3 Love Always,

Lxm (09.2016) 

After the sunset

After the sunset, I'll only remember how much it hurt and not the actual experience.

I've worked hard on myself trying to make me a better individual, not for others but for me. I act carefully so I don't hurt those around me but little was I ready for anything that approached me this year. 

The level of pain I've gained from this year's stress alone was unbearable, had two anxiety attacks and thought I'd be completely at a lost. Then from no where I came across a care-free soul.

Have I never had a carefree individual come into my life? sure, I have they are everywhere. Just one like this one had never appeared so suddenly. I am open to meet new individuals but never to go out of way to this extent. 

I love new experience, and being a little crazy this year was on my list. I didn't expect to fall as deep as I did; didn't expect to feel all the empty-ness that I fought through.

So, 2016 was a mash up of a lot of fun and total hell. Funny story is that it's not even over yet; the stress is building on and on now day by day. Hopefully after this year I can just get back to focusing on whatever I wanted to do originally. 

When the original plan does not work, there is always a plan B. 

Besides, after a good nights sleep I shouldn't be thinking about these infamous memories anymore. 

Thank you though, for allow me to see just how crazy I can be. I never knew I had it in me, you changed me as an individual and I couldn't appreciate it more. 

Love,

LxM

The Queen's Rule - (Halsey Castle)

Halsey - Castle Audio Video

Sick of all these people talking, sick of all this noise

Tired of all these cameras flashing, sick of being poised

Now my neck is open wide, begging for a fist around it

Already choking on my pride, so there's no use crying about it

I'm headed straight for the castle

They wanna make me their queen

And there's an old man sitting on the throne that's saying that I probably shouldn't be so mean

I'm headed straight for the castle

They've got the kingdom locked up

And there's an old man sitting on the throne that's saying I should probably keep my pretty mouth shut

Straight for the castle

Oh, all of these minutes passing, sick of feeling used

If you wanna break these walls down, you're gonna get bruised

Now my neck is open wide, begging for a fist around it

Already choking on my pride, so there's no use crying about it

I'm headed straight for the castle

They wanna make me their queen

And there's an old man sitting on the throne that's saying that I probably shouldn't be so mean

I'm headed straight for the castle

They've got the kingdom locked up

And there's an old man sitting on the throne that's saying I should probably keep my pretty mouth shut

Straight for the castle

There's no use crying about it [4x]

I'm headed straight for the castle

They wanna make me their queen

And there's an old man sitting on the throne that's saying that I probably shouldn't be so mean

I'm headed straight for the castle

They've got the kingdom locked up

And there's an old man sitting on the throne that's saying I should probably keep my pretty mouth shut

Straight for the castle

They wanna make me their queen

And there's an old man sitting on the throne that's saying that I probably shouldn't be so mean

I'm headed straight for the castle

They've got the kingdom locked up

And there's an old man sitting on the throne that's saying I should probably keep my pretty mouth shut

Straight for the castle

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Just something I stumbled upon while deep in my study phase. 

*yea I wasn't that focused shh!

But, the main point being made is when you are a queen some things aren't worth crying about moving forward and aiming for nothing but better is all Queens should do.

Staying strong as the most aspiring individual you want to become.

-LxMei

So this change, recently happened...

I used to be terrified to stand infront of a camera, my baby photos consisted of me crying infront of cameras, somehow somewhere though I found myself traveling from hiding behind the lens to wanting to experience life infront of the lens.
A different perspective on life perhaps, and a new challenge that I currently enjoying as it last.

LINK TO MY PROFILE

Model: Sarah Ly 

Located In MO, I am willing to travel for serious inquiries. 

Photo Credit : TP LOR Photography 

Photo Credit: Cam Xiong Photography 

Photo Credit: Nick Warnock and Sons

Photo Credit: Nick Warnock and Sons 

-LXmei

Everly's Journey of Life "Ask not what you can do for yourself, but what you can do for others."

Everly's Journey of Life (FB PAGE)

"Ask not what you can do for yourself, but what you can do for others." 

Today's post is dedicated to my many pondering thoughts, and this little girl here. 

Most people may look at these photos and be questioning why this post wonder who she is- well her name is Everly Moua- she is my niece and she was diagnosed with Epilepsy.

She is the strongest child, I've ever laid eyes on. This little girl taught me what it meant to be happy unconditionally, how to cherish the precious life that we are given. 

I held her once as a baby, and never before had I been so scared; holding her in the wrong position could've been so hazardous to her. For years I watched my sister raise her, and love her; I just watched and admired how she could do it and make it seem so easily. 

We live everyday wondering what we can do for our futures, and establish for ourselves and never stop to think who else in this world may be waiting for us to stop in our steps and look around to see all that we are missing. 

Helping others should come unconditionally, if you asked me how this little girl helped me-

my answer:

she smiled at me, and made my day a little brighter

Simple as that, she struggles yes; but she has never stopped smiling. She will cry in pain, struggle to stand, but never once did she fall and stay down. Her motivation comes from within and her strength pulls on everyone, she is a warrior fighting for a reason to get back up.

I've always wanted to do something for this little girl; but currently all I want to do is share her page, share her story, and let everyone know. 

EVERLY MOUA - is more than your average little girl; she is going to dominate Epilepsy and she is going to be laughing and smiling forever because we love her and I hope all of you will too.

-Lxmei- 

有一種勇氣叫做放棄 A courage called giving up

Instead of asking me why, try to just understand that there isn't always an answer.

I didn't make a decision out of rash behavior, it was out of trust, love and with thorough processing.

Della Ding: A Courage Called Giving Up

...10 years ago, if you asked me to give up on something I'd be stubborn and tell you that I don't know how and that I wouldn't ever give up I'd work harder and harder to prove to you that I am right and eventually either it'd work or it wouldn't. 

Today, if you asked me why I've given up so much? I'd tell you: Because I am stronger than I once was. 

I am no longer scared of what consequences may come with my decisions, because I can understand and accept that it is what it will be. 

Years will go by,and I'll think back on maybe stupid decisions but I won't regret anything I've ever done for myself or for others. I enjoy being selfless, but I can be selfish. These are not bad traits though, they are what make my character. I am who I am; and if you ask me now to tell myself 10 years ago to be who I am today I couldn't do that to her. 

A Taiwanese artist Della Ding- released a song called "A type of courage called giving up" I linked the song and translation into the link above. It sort of explained to me why I made the decisions I did; I'm not running from my problems rather I've grown to accept that in some cases giving up is the best way; and it is by far not the easiest. 

It's another page in the book that is ready to be turned. 

-LxMei

photocredits: Yee Lee

"Stand Proud, Stand Tall, Stand with Courage. You can cry, can give up, and fail but Never forget who you are, and who are wish to become."