有一種勇氣叫做放棄 A courage called giving up

Instead of asking me why, try to just understand that there isn't always an answer.

I didn't make a decision out of rash behavior, it was out of trust, love and with thorough processing.

Della Ding: A Courage Called Giving Up

...10 years ago, if you asked me to give up on something I'd be stubborn and tell you that I don't know how and that I wouldn't ever give up I'd work harder and harder to prove to you that I am right and eventually either it'd work or it wouldn't. 

Today, if you asked me why I've given up so much? I'd tell you: Because I am stronger than I once was. 

I am no longer scared of what consequences may come with my decisions, because I can understand and accept that it is what it will be. 

Years will go by,and I'll think back on maybe stupid decisions but I won't regret anything I've ever done for myself or for others. I enjoy being selfless, but I can be selfish. These are not bad traits though, they are what make my character. I am who I am; and if you ask me now to tell myself 10 years ago to be who I am today I couldn't do that to her. 

A Taiwanese artist Della Ding- released a song called "A type of courage called giving up" I linked the song and translation into the link above. It sort of explained to me why I made the decisions I did; I'm not running from my problems rather I've grown to accept that in some cases giving up is the best way; and it is by far not the easiest. 

It's another page in the book that is ready to be turned. 

-LxMei

photocredits: Yee Lee

"Stand Proud, Stand Tall, Stand with Courage. You can cry, can give up, and fail but Never forget who you are, and who are wish to become." 

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Under her care she uncovers all your beautiful traits

With her help you will not need a pumpkin, mice or a mate 

Enter the room and steal the spotlight 

Leave the night as a queen, not running from a scary prince 

 

She is not your average fairy god mother

She will be your Fairy Goth-Mother.

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 Thank You one & all-LxMei

21 Years of Nothing but Gratefulness

02.17.1995

I was brought onto this earth

by a wonderful mother, and a father who love unconditionally.

A few years to follow, I would be handed to with blessings to my parents today

my aunt and uncle who loved and tended to me without haste.

Becoming my undying backbone, they supported me equally as any parent should

4 years later they brought me a younger sister, 

her first cry was music to my ears, even if its like that song to the radio that was played too much.

My biological family also had given me 4 older brothers stronger than the core of earth,

and 3 older sisters with love deeper than the oceans 

also my mother gave me a younger brother who gave as many scares and laughs.

In the past 21 years, I have been nothing but grateful;

there are days that I've been upset, but after every obstacle I love them more.

As a great family they have guided me, and taught me how to be a better individual.

Lucky for me, I have also been blessed with an amazing group of friends.

My shooting star, she is like a star that is also fall around trying to grant others wishes but never once did anyone ask for her own wish, and even if it was stated she'd try to grant yours first. I love her for this. 

My courageous panda, stubborn as a rock when she knows she is right and stronger than a dragon warrior when you give her obstacles, when she guarded my side I had nothing to fear now she has found her own warrior and I am grateful she is so blessed for her future journeys to come.  

My beauty queen, forever the most beautiful woman I will ever lay my eyes on- her undying efforts to get a better lifestyle and her spite for those who do not need tolerance is what makes her who she is, a personality to never be caged. 

My Drake'sWifu, an individual character that cannot be replaced she has never given up over tears, or struggles. Probably because her Champagne Papi will come for her one day but regardless she is fighting for that future that she visualizes so well. 

and  finally My Teemo, you are my support when I need to be carried. 

To my friends: Thank You for always being my legs and keeping me up long enough to make another step forward. 

21 years into my life and I am forever grateful to have you all be in my life. 

Thank you guys for everything.

Loving you dearly,

LxMei

Vision Doesn't Change

My title today, only has one word... did you notice that. That photo above, what do you see?

I came up with a few possibilities:

It could be... a rose petal on a leaf laying on the group after a rain shower

It could be... the end of a ribbon being dragged across the wet ground

or...what do you think?

Envision something like this...envision how others see things differently. We live in a world that vision is dominant now, but how we all see it differs with judgement.

Precise vision, is known as 20/20...I don't have good vision but abstract never hurts. Plus a more colorful imagination always makes the world a little better right?

Remember when we were all children, and we thought our parents were so tall and that we'd never be that tall? Well, how about now...I'm already looking down at my parents. But it makes my thoughts as a child all the more interesting. 

My point is, Vision changes with age and time..but that item we see never changes it's how we envision it that changes it. 

-LiXmei

Hang Up Your Stars

"If every star in the sky is a wish, how many wishes are there?"

Allow us to hang up our wishes, allow us to continue our dreams, and thanks to the stars we have a place to send our hopes...

          I do not know about you, but I know about me. In my life, I've had ups and downs and times where I feel that I'll never be able to stand up again but I do...eventually. The strength behind standing up again isn't something great like, inner strength that can keep me standing but it is support and care. This support and care, is like every single star in the sky--- alone they are only individual stars in a vast ocean of endless darkness but together we view them as millions and millions of individual stars that stand together shining back on us. 

          Perhaps, it is because in my life I met with a little girl who made stars a little more noticeable in life. She views them with a smile, with her heart and it was her that showed me that a "star" can be hope, can be dreams, and can be upheld with strings stronger than any... (strings of love). 

I do not know how else to help her fulfill her wishes besides, accompanying her and bring her every star that I lay my eyes one.

        So, the story to share today... "Hang up your stars, and let your wishes go up up and away to rejoice in the skies..." Sometimes dreams and wishes just need some hope, and that hope is the love and care the ones around you can provide.


-LxMei

Over a cup of coffee :D

Do you have a friend who has to have a cup of coffee a day?

or maybe you yourself are like this?

Regardless, I believe that there is a lot of meaning behind this simple cup of coffee.

For instance someone's personality, yes it seems ridiculous but perhaps if someone's personality was a certain way or maybe their habits created by their personality's influence how they enjoy their coffee.

In one case I can explain it this way-

some days I wake up and I feel like a mocha is the way to go - my reasoning is simple I need some sweetness but hot chocolate is too far but I don't wish for something too bitter.

So I'll enjoy a mocha to begin my day.

Other days perhaps a latte, but a normal latte is never what I order... I usually go with hazelnut or a vanilla flavor. Why? Well I enjoy the latte but sometimes it feels too light and I still need some enhancing to the flavor- the rest of my day seems to need an extra kick too.

Then there are days where some regular coffee, with a flavored creamer is nothing but perfect. It's simple and only takes a few minute of my morning and I can choose different types of creamers like recently I really liked a girl scout's cookie flavored creamer :D

A cup of coffee, can get cold though...I have a habit where I have to finish the coffee before it cools. And by cool I mean it reaches luke warm, and I am finished. (I know it sounds wasteful, but if I have a microwave nearby I'll reheat it haha)

Perhaps it is how my personality is too, I either finish a whole task while my wheels are turning

or I give up and return to it when I have a new start up.

See, personality and coffee comes in a package <3

Over a cup of coffee though, regardless of males or female a lot can be accomplished. 

To some it may just be a caffeine kick of the day, but really

its a mood booster too.

Some individuals drink it so much without knowing it, you call a friend to meet up and you have a coffee with them finish the conversation and realize over coffee you've gained lost memories.

Over Coffee is fluff, and that fluff is like your every day mind.

fluff works like that haze you have in the morning it shields the boiling mixture inside

after the fluff disappears like the coffee in the cup you're thinking more clear too.

(My addiction for coffee ends here...*after I have one more.)

LiXmei

Fight with the strength of a light house

If I asked you to think of the strongest item in this world? What would you think of... a man? a woman? or more specifically maybe an item is what you are picturing. 

No matter what it is, perhaps its just how you like to view the words "strong". Your way of putting an image of something to a word to give it more strength and meaning. 

In my defense, I do not think strong means indestructible or imperishable; rather considering other factors such as: continually standing or withstanding a great force but using whatever is left in one's power source.

My image of strong, was created when I laid my eyes upon a lighthouse. In some cases they appear eerie but in other times they can appear beautiful, fragile even. Upon the image below I concluded something about life... image every human were a lighthouse. 

In the past some lighthouses have fallen, and then rebuilt because ships depend upon them... because they hold stories. Lighthouses face strong winds, protect others, and even pull through after the biggest tides crash into them continually. The beauty in the strength of a lighthouse lays in the simple factor after a storm it stands by itself still... tall maybe bewildered but standing.   

Now think like a lighthouse, and fight like one too; become a lone warrior in the middle of all tides fight to survive... for those who need your guidance and come for your hidden beauty. 

Never give up a battle, and remember even when you lose, someone is coming to your aide so do not fear the battle because the war itself has yet to start. 

-LiXMei-