. . . S U B C O N S C I O U S . . .

Photographer: Trev.Art 

. Your Subconscious Worth .  

.  3.11.2017 .

      In the setting that we are all living among strangers we are fighting ourselves daily to find the reasons to meet the needs of our higher selves (parents, or individuals of interest in this case) but we also strive to meet our own aspirations. To some, it is a matter of time and for others it is a matter of peer support and the subconscious hunger for personal success. Success comes to those who have created the ideals of an individual with no 'visible' fear of failure, and a subconscious urge for greater heights built upon their own potential. 

     The years we spent in our adolescence may have seemed to have been the hardest of our times as ants in this growing colony. Yet, as time passes some become stronger they learn to fight and show grit to all challenges. Others, decide to not want more for themselves and settle for the minimal essential. Then, there are the select few who do not fight or settle but condemn themselves to a lost phase - searching, dreaming, wishing to find what it is they actually wish to attain in this futuristic lifestyle.  

    Watching many individuals grow, and others fall I've seen myself in the reflection of those younger than me, the ones yet to experience the incidents to break them. I've lost, to where I hated myself. I've won to where I did not think it was enough and wanted more. BUT, I've always been aware of my subconscious self : the side of me who knows not of my lose or my wins but my true value and worth. Subconsciously you must know your worth, and your values so you can create something of a platform to stand upon and carry yourself as you battle your way through the days, months and years to pass. 

     Subconscious - (defined as the part of one's mind that influences your actions, thoughts and emotions) arises to conscious and awareness once you've attained your aspirations or when others give doubt to what you desire to achieve. When others show you the negative, and you do not fail but rather raise yourself above all else ; you find yourself lurking in your subconscious mindset demanding a reason behind your actions or behavior that led to such success.

And in no matter of time, you will turn to the subconscious thoughts to look for more answers. Answers perhaps at one time in life you did not know how to answer but due to years or months of processing and restoration you've come to conclude upon analysis. No matter what the answers or the thoughts/emotions/actions you may omit yourself too - it has been done and the days will end, the time will pass and your subconscious nature will stay.To be kind, to be humble, to be honest or to be discreet your actions lay upon those values in your subconscious mind. A beautiful place, away from the rushes of strangers and others intentions - this place is where is truly flourish 'your worth'.  

Love always, 

LxMei

Vision Doesn't Change

My title today, only has one word... did you notice that. That photo above, what do you see?

I came up with a few possibilities:

It could be... a rose petal on a leaf laying on the group after a rain shower

It could be... the end of a ribbon being dragged across the wet ground

or...what do you think?

Envision something like this...envision how others see things differently. We live in a world that vision is dominant now, but how we all see it differs with judgement.

Precise vision, is known as 20/20...I don't have good vision but abstract never hurts. Plus a more colorful imagination always makes the world a little better right?

Remember when we were all children, and we thought our parents were so tall and that we'd never be that tall? Well, how about now...I'm already looking down at my parents. But it makes my thoughts as a child all the more interesting. 

My point is, Vision changes with age and time..but that item we see never changes it's how we envision it that changes it. 

-LiXmei

Glass hearts and their beauty

When tautened by this image below, it almost seems directly negative and lost. 

Notice though, in my title I stated it's beauty. The beautiful thing about this glass heart is that it is Broken. 

How can broken be beautiful...well how can nature be beautiful. The beholder of beauty of course sees beauty in its own way. 

I witness a woman when I see a glass heart, fragile but strong. Stubborn but weak... a woman with a glass heart.

We feel emotions even when we are numb and feels as if emotions do not exist. 

In the past few years that I've live I've learned that even in the dark there can be a beauty, that beauty is in the glass heart. 

What happens when it breaks though? Nothing.

There is no such thing as nothing tho?

There is something that is nothing.

If it breaks we throw it away but not without thinking "can I fix it?" 

Human's who feel pain or face different struggles in the stages of life are like this too.

I say: Keep it, remember the pain but further more remember that the grace of the glass is the light in the dark. 

Remember..it's beauty.

-LiXmei

A million issues to worry about, but I choose to relax

   If you read the title and feel like you're confused, then good it was meant so. If you read the title and felt as though it is understandable then good we are on the same boat.

   I went through a lot as a child, and even more as my journey slowly goes on but sadly my "issues" have yet to end. I do not choose to avoid them but rather live with them. Some mistakes I;ve made in the past are things I cannot change, some sacrifices I've made were more than necessary but like any other normal human I am made of flesh and feelings so I do feel even subtle pain. I choose to relax though, because regardless of all those things I know something will never change. My mindset is always going to be the same.

   Only once in a while will I get so tired to the point where I feel as though there are no escapes but even them I tell myself to just get up and keep going but truthfully I don't have a strong mindset then, I'm going through instinct. Instinct is what will ruin a person or lead them to succeed.
To me conquering each day one by one is already a small success but to others it may be nothing.

Lending a helping hand to someone can make me feel great but even then as a human and as a women, I ridicule.
I wonder, who in the right minds would be stupid enough to have such thoughts, so such actions or even possible just think to myself about many many things.

We all have secrets, we all like secrets. Secrets are what make us mysteries. How well do you know your best friends, your family, your past or maybe even your future?
 
   Perhaps I like to live like I'm in a novel waiting for some climax but when it hits and arrives I may just choose the low road and cruise my way around it because I don't want that climax but I am looking for another.

And like anyone else, ....I am lost, but I am not.

I see what I wish, just like you
I choose what I chose because it is my choice,
the outcome is what I make it to be
not what it wishes to be
I am in control so I can control.

Life is simple, just live it day by day and those issues will be nothing but climaxes.

-LiXMei