. S o m e w h e r e . S o m e h o w . S o m e d a y .

S o m e w h e r e :

I once wandered through my days thinking of all the places I could be but here. 

I struggled like anyone else trying to find peace at heart, an answer that was at point blank distance yet I always missed.

Searching nights restlessly hoping one day I'd have the answers I ponder hours for, yet here I am still wondering if I ever needed to worry for all the little matters to weigh me down for the years to come. 

The answer is...  No. 

S o m e h o w: 

No one held my hands when I fought myself through my darkest time,

I never wished nor wanted for that to get in the way of my relations with others. 

Yet, today I am here standing on my own two feet - still asking myself if things would have been different would I have set aside my own strengths and indulged in my weaknesses. 

Others ask of guidance, some ask for a reference and today I am asking if  I would truly change any of my past decisions. 

The answer is... No. 

S o m e d a y: 

In legends, and fairy tales there are exciting events and happy endings. 

But in between alike there are increments of sadness, remorse, anger, and regret. 

In life someday, I just want to be able to look back at my life and smile not in defeat but with contentment. 

Compliment myself for the path I did choose. Embrace who I have become, and someday even tell myself - " you made it." 

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With time drifting I find life all the more beautiful.

There are ugly moments, but I know now it was only a moment. 

There are memories I still shed tears for, but I know now they were worth every second. 

Someday, Somehow, Somewhere : 

I reflect upon my deepest desires to fight with my greatest fears. 

Celebrating my growth through my passion, ambitions, and dreams. 

Love,
LxMei

This is what time has done to me

. 09. 29. 2017 . 

Time, this is what I want to talk about today. 

I'm not exactly, sad but I'm not exactly happy. 

Balance perhaps.

This is what time has done to me. 

It's gifted me with times to rejoice over my success, 

cry about my failures, 

and rethink over how I can do better next time. 

It built into me though i feel, to sense all my emotions just pass by. 

It's like watching sand drip from one side to another, I'm just watching the days go by now. 

Perhaps many share a similar setting, we all feel lost at a stand still. 

I am grateful though, to have another day to stare into the sand bottle. 

I am humble to have so many moments to worry about the things around me. 

My adventurous soul seeks more though, something out there in the world 

it continues to call me. 

What are you? Who are you? and Where are you? 

Some say, those who think too much are over-thinkers. But on the contrary we simply think  as we feel, and we feel with those thoughts. 

The wise didn't become so without learning lessons that they encompassed over time. 

And my time elapse - is now from the last time I embarked on an adventure. 

Success, is failure should I feel I've yet to feel my own freedom. 

A free spirit cannot be caged. 

High off of reality, time to create some more to my fantasy.   

xoxo, LxMei