I went through a lot as a child, and even more as my journey slowly goes on but sadly my "issues" have yet to end. I do not choose to avoid them but rather live with them. Some mistakes I;ve made in the past are things I cannot change, some sacrifices I've made were more than necessary but like any other normal human I am made of flesh and feelings so I do feel even subtle pain. I choose to relax though, because regardless of all those things I know something will never change. My mindset is always going to be the same.
Only once in a while will I get so tired to the point where I feel as though there are no escapes but even them I tell myself to just get up and keep going but truthfully I don't have a strong mindset then, I'm going through instinct. Instinct is what will ruin a person or lead them to succeed.
To me conquering each day one by one is already a small success but to others it may be nothing.
Lending a helping hand to someone can make me feel great but even then as a human and as a women, I ridicule.
I wonder, who in the right minds would be stupid enough to have such thoughts, so such actions or even possible just think to myself about many many things.
We all have secrets, we all like secrets. Secrets are what make us mysteries. How well do you know your best friends, your family, your past or maybe even your future?
Perhaps I like to live like I'm in a novel waiting for some climax but when it hits and arrives I may just choose the low road and cruise my way around it because I don't want that climax but I am looking for another.
And like anyone else, ....I am lost, but I am not.
I see what I wish, just like you
I choose what I chose because it is my choice,
the outcome is what I make it to be
not what it wishes to be
I am in control so I can control.
Life is simple, just live it day by day and those issues will be nothing but climaxes.
-LiXMei
