STRUGGLING
IMAGERY SPECIALIST : MIKEY MONDAY
MODEL: SARAH LY
I am 5'6", a Hmong girl, my major is business marketing and minor is psychology.
What do I struggle with?
I struggle to meet the standards of stereotypes,
I am supposed to be good at math because I am Asian.
Sadly, math was my lowest score on my ACT.
As a daughter, I have standards to reach in my household.
I must know how to cook, clean, and tend to my parents needs around the household.
Luckily, I have achieved all that I need to know but there is still more for me to learn because as my mother told me growing up as a child, "you learn in this household only what you will learn again in another."
Her statement is referring to when I get married, and move in with my husband or his family- I will have to relearn my duties of a daughter or in our language a nyab (daughter in law).
I've struggled financially, how to get about paying for my bills.
I struggled educationally, trying to find ways to make studying stick so I could past test with no sleep.
I struggled with sleep, nights of restlessness only to be tired throughout the day.
I struggled to be happy.
Emotionally, more than anything else I struggled.
I fought depression again last year.
I watched it tear me apart, carve a whole into my chest- and I watched as all the ones I loved either never saw it or could not reach out to help me.
We all struggle is the thing- we all have hard times in life.
We hit rock bottom and forget how to get back up.
The only advice I give here is, "You are not alone. Someone loves you. And you can Love you too."
There are thoughts that will always taunt us to want to do regretful decisions but if 2016 left me with anything other than some painful memories- then it was that if you truly loved, then it is okay to continue to harbor that love and not the person you once loved.
It is okay to remember to Love yourself. It is okay to challenge yourself to strive for a GREATER YOU.
STRUGGLE, because you'll learn how to fight.
STRUGGLE, because you'll be able to stand again.
STRUGGLE, because now you can help others who are struggling too.
Love,
LxMei
