Instead of asking me why, try to just understand that there isn't always an answer.
I didn't make a decision out of rash behavior, it was out of trust, love and with thorough processing.
...10 years ago, if you asked me to give up on something I'd be stubborn and tell you that I don't know how and that I wouldn't ever give up I'd work harder and harder to prove to you that I am right and eventually either it'd work or it wouldn't.
Today, if you asked me why I've given up so much? I'd tell you: Because I am stronger than I once was.
I am no longer scared of what consequences may come with my decisions, because I can understand and accept that it is what it will be.
Years will go by,and I'll think back on maybe stupid decisions but I won't regret anything I've ever done for myself or for others. I enjoy being selfless, but I can be selfish. These are not bad traits though, they are what make my character. I am who I am; and if you ask me now to tell myself 10 years ago to be who I am today I couldn't do that to her.
A Taiwanese artist Della Ding- released a song called "A type of courage called giving up" I linked the song and translation into the link above. It sort of explained to me why I made the decisions I did; I'm not running from my problems rather I've grown to accept that in some cases giving up is the best way; and it is by far not the easiest.
It's another page in the book that is ready to be turned.
-LxMei
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| photocredits: Yee Lee |
"Stand Proud, Stand Tall, Stand with Courage. You can cry, can give up, and fail but Never forget who you are, and who are wish to become."
