No matter how beautiful the times, the memories, every moment will come to an end. When something so sweet, becomes so bitter we tend to forget when it was once our everything. The late nights, the dreams, the adventures, and ever so more how we felt.
I won't forget you.
When my life hit rock bottom, you were that light.
When my light was dim, you continued to push me forward.
You taught me to become who I am today, so even now when I wish to give up.
I cannot.
A few days ago, I created a piece in memory of you.
In memory of your warm smile, your jokes, your everything.
I miss you so much, but I cannot even express the words I feel inside.
I am flustered but one day I will be fine.
This may dear I say, be the first time I truly feel in love.
Yet, even I knew this love would never last.
I miss feeling you beside me.
I miss seeing your eyes, and getting lost inside.
I miss your guidance, your temper and your love.
I miss you.
I intend to close off my heart from here on, I have yet to express this to no one.
But I want to reserve apart of me, for you forever.
So until I change and become another- that light that once shined within me will always be apart of my heart tunnels buried and alive.
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04.23.2018
Zero two one eight
A day I once felt some weight
Wrong numbers wrong codes wrong fate
Now I fear only the wait
How much more must I lose from my plate
And for whose sake
We speak not of when things will accumulate
Only of how one will walk away
I love you, Rudolph.
<3 LixMei
